Had a 3.5 hours fellowship with a new “mentor” figure:

I learnt that faith is not about us. We are unable to grow in faith. The faster we get to realize that we have no faith the better it is. Faith is about God’s faithfulness. We can trust Him because He is a faithful God.

God has been speaking to me about listening to Abba alone. Through the fellowship I was assured by her stories and sharing that following Abba is the only way.

Everything is for Abba alone. Nothing in this world is more important than our Abba. Everything is done for Abba with His heart. We do as He wills.

16 Jan 2022:

I dreamt of 2 hearts. When we do not consult God in something in our life, the 2 hearts are not aligned and actually drifting apart. When we do everything for Abba, the hearts are moving into alignment. I see that the human heart is translucent and the other heart (Abba’s heart) is vividly red. His colour (will) shines through our translucent heart (our will). Others will see His will through our life. That’s Christ in us. This is God continuing His teaching that I should only follow His voice and His ways.

I was also reminded of the same mentor saying she is called to the caller, not the calling.

Today this devotion came up from “My utmost for His highest”. Same idea. We are called to the caller, not the calling.

“I heard the voice of the Lord, saying: “Whom shall I send, and who will go for Us?”” (Isaiah 6:8)

When we talk about the call of God, we often forget the most important thing, namely, the nature of Him who calls. There are many things calling each of us today. Some of these calls will be answered, and others will not even be heard. The call is the expression of the nature of the One who calls, and we can only recognize the call if that same nature is in us. The call of God is the expression of God’s nature, not ours. God providentially weaves the threads of His call through our lives, and only we can distinguish them. It is the threading of God’s voice directly to us over a certain concern, and it is useless to seek another person’s opinion of it. Our dealings over the call of God should be kept exclusively between ourselves and Him.

The call of God is not a reflection of my nature; my personal desires and temperament are of no consideration. As long as I dwell on my own qualities and traits and think about what I am suited for, I will never hear the call of God. But when God brings me into the right relationship with Himself, I will be in the same condition Isaiah was. Isaiah was so attuned to God, because of the great crisis he had just endured, that the call of God penetrated his soul. The majority of us cannot hear anything but ourselves. And we cannot hear anything God says. But to be brought to the place where we can hear the call of God is to be profoundly changed.

I feel great comfort and assurance that I can be free from listening to the voice of the world, especially in how to build tech startup and run business. I will only listen to the voice of Abba and follow His ways.