How do I stop my tears from rolling? I don't want you to see papa's tears. I know that would frighten you further from what is already the worst nightmare I can ever imagine. I don't want to trigger the flood of emotions mama is holding...

16 Feb 2019 Morning was a rush and I failed to read the bible and pray for the first time. During lunch with friends, I was not as "Christ-like" as I hoped. During steamboat gathering at night, I displayed more un-Christ-like behaviours and gave in to more...

By this time, I have been quite ill and in pain for about 5 months. Had my death-bed experience, emergency exit from UK to Singapore, failed first surgery, been on the machine for 5 weeks, failed second surgery and doctors are telling me very discouraging...